My Friday night .. in a nutshell

Nothing like being so worked up .. that at 2423 U just decide screw it,, I am making a cup of coffee ! (Breakfast Blend) I have been trying for hours to calm down, but I just continue to upset myself more instead of being able to let it go. I just can't seem to understand why the same shit just happens non-stop. It is like I have a mini tape recorder in my hand pushing play, rewind, play, rewind!! She comes in the house at 830 pm , she changes clothes. gets cleaned up a bit and gone again by 930 pm. Go figure. I knew it... it is a Friday evening.. but honestly with her, does night matter day or time.. she just goes and goes again. Don't trust her. Don't believe her. Don't nothing with her ..she is like all others.. don't care just wish I was dead already.. so I would stop fucking up her schedule.. Sad , but I know the truth. She gets free dog watcher and setter.. 24/7.. no rent and bills to house.. just her other stuff , she has EVERYTHING made literally. Should have known she would do this again.. PEOPLE NEVER CHANGE.. JUST SITUATIONS  !! So, I have spent Friday Night just me and dogs working myself like crazy.. I am so tired of being so tired. I keep telling ppl and crying and pleading , but nothing works so.. I just give in I suppose !!