Scattered memos to Nobody: I just need 10 minutes

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

I just need 10 minutes

Just miserable .. I am. My mouth, throat, tongue, lips, etc.. swollen so bad.. so much pain. I took meds earlier but even high powered shit wore off fast. I am at a loss. These diseases attacking my face is a first and so hard to deal with on so many levels. I am completely out of my mind over it all.
NOTHING working or helping. I am also about to go nuts and hurt these 3 damn dogs that are testing me to the fullest of levels.... they wont calm down for 2 seconds. I am just done. I want quiet and relief and just some peace for like 10 minutes..
I have tried to set down and watch movies but they wont even let me enjoy that... like dealing with 25 ,,5 yr old boys.. that are ADHD.. in the worst way possible. I laugh, but its no joke.
I am done..
Cant eat and hungry actually. I might try drop of ice cream, but even that will only help like 2 minutes and then back to the norm. I just so sad and wanna cry.. crying only makes shit worse.. especially this.. I cried the last few days and kinda learned my lesson.. u could say. WTF do I do?

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"