Scattered memos to Nobody: Ya ever feel like you are just spinning?....

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

Ya ever feel like you are just spinning?....

Well my friends.. that means you are . Hate to be the dream and fantasy land fucker-upper.. but facts are facts. If you write notes and stuff still does not get done.... If you do the same shit over and over thinking you will get a different response from others around you.. if you do half the shit I personally do each day just to feel love and validation... you are just wasting your time and spinning in circles for no reason my friends !! ~ STOP ALREADY ~ JUST STOP

Wednesday random... WTF's :
When people that live right next to you send your Christmas cards in the mail.. and informing you that have moved.. well duh.. I know you have moved.. I live next to you. Yes true story.
I thought maybe it was just me being emotional.. because I gave them cards or put them in their mailboxes.. when one friend did it.. I was upset.. not a Christmas well wish but a last minute .. we have moved card.. not even personalized. I was upset.. Then when my other neighbor did it too... that we don't know well.. just met few months ago.. I was in you gotta be kiddin me mode.. was not personalized, a picture of family and they had moved announcement.. well frikkin duh.. I LIVE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU. I KNOW YOU MOVED. I didn't even want or expect a card back.. but the fact they added me last minute and just sent stupid shit to me in the mail.. when I live next door.. then kinda spun me into a different mode. I thought to myself then.. maybe its not them.. maybe its me. Fucking expectations get me every time . I was sad... I cried!! If they were going to take the time to put a printed label on the envelop and mail it.. I didn't mean enough to them to just walk over and them give me just a cheesy personalized card. My ahha moment …. they just don't care about me at all. Sorry they wasted their time on the labels and money on another stamp. OMG
The one neighbors we just met.. I didn't really take that to heart, but the friends we have had for many many years... THAT WAS FUCKED UP. Just my take on the situation.
They tried to make good by getting us a Christmas Present.. but still didn't change anything. The gift was a candle ( they already had), canned apple butter jelly ( they already had).. and yes they did get us a beautiful new tree ornament for our new home.. so a drop of thought went into that.. but really.. that did not change the situation… Nice gift bag from a neighbor.. that really just left me more upset. Just me. I know.. I am a horrible person I suppose.. At least that is what my son-in-law says about me !!! GGGRRRRR

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"