She keeps saying to me... strength grows in the moments when you think you can't go on anymore, but you keep trucking on anyways. Great words and all... and most days I give into THE VOICE , BUT SOME DAYS I JUST CAN'T DO IT ! Then I battle inwards because I have set myself up for failure. and I battle to do what the voice inner me says and then I am so miserable.. I guess I will just be one miserable bitch when I finally die.. I am so tired Y'all, I REALLY AM . I fight everyday to get through that next day. Is it suppose to be this way? Does anyone know? Seriously.. if you have answers for that.. enlighten me.. o wise ones.
More visions last night. Saw not only my dead gran, Allmon, but others.. I know my time is close. I also saw Jean ( mom) & Kim my Aunt.. they must be ill or facing great challenges right now.. It was so intense.. the things I saw.. I am not going to put it here,, but I will remember in my heart and soul what I saw and heard.. Still unknowns in the mix.. hhhmmmm.. oh well.. I got the messages loud and clear.. But I already know my time is near..
3 outta the 4 things have happened.. and my future Prophecy from College Station has all come true now.. just one thing left to... come to pass. I will not go scared into the other world.. I know whats to come.. Between dying already and coming back.. and the other experiences I have had.. I already know.. I guess that is why I am so Realistic and calm when it comes to certain things.. when ya know,,, you just know.. why stress it..? Ya feel me ???
