Questions.. Things.. I have pondered..
How long must we fight? I cannot stay in this. Nor will I stay in this.. I have shit to do.. lol
..left alone to bear up all these ills.. I have been...… gggrrr
After yesterday this crossed my mind a few times.. Well, its a rare thing to have an ingenious friend.. LOL
I found myself drifting out of sorts mentally again because all the ( HATE-LIKE) around me has gotten almost inbearable.. good lord I say ! Must it always be the BS over a difference in sports.. or something so trivial.. gggrrrr
I also am trying so hard not to get completely blogged down with my daughter too.. (youngest of course).. Her issues are like a roller coaster and she wants to take me along for the ride.. it is way toooooo much stress and worry for me.. I feel a stroke coming back on.. I had a TIA this a.m. at about 0430.. it took me until almost lunch to get back to almost where I was at originally.. which was certainly not a good place already..! Anyway,, she now has Ovarian cysts and soo much more bad medical news.. but she had advance warning and wouldn't listen or stop her shit and habits so know she is paying for it..I can barely keep track of all her shit these days.. SHE IS DRIVING ME TO MY DEATH.. I have to find a way to shut that shit out.. but seeing as how I am a good mom and a caring soul.. dont see that happening.. I CANT HELP BUT LOVE HER AND TRY TO HELP. I am at a loss.. not sure what and or where to go today.. Just got off phone with her and because I could only listen and give some advice..now my shit has increased and soon I must get to the bed and try to let it go or I will end up having a major stroke today.. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ???
STAY POSITIVE... I MUST REMAIN POSITIVE.. This is from yesterdays follies around the house on Labor Day.. We cooked out , Watched Dazed and Confuzed.. CLASSIC.. and we had fun for a bit anyway.
