Scattered memos to Nobody: Confused am I !!!!!

Wednesday, January 8, 2020

Confused am I !!!!!

Another day went by and no word from my neighbor.. I guess I was right.. they aren't friends.. friends wouldn't do that. So let me remind you what happened.. weird since Halloween party.. then Christmas I got them stuff and they treated me crappy like I pulled something outta trash to give them, and then all seemed to be kind of ok and New Years eve night ..she sent me a text asking if I liked Spumante but I had a mini stroke and didn't see the text til way later... so a couple days go by to where I could text her.. and I did .. I said sorry for not replying, explained what happened, and wished them belated 2020 wishes.. and I have heard NOTHING SINCE.. not even an.. are you doing better ? or anything.
I AM DONE WITH THOSE PEOPLE. I was so stupid thinking I actually could have neighbors for friends.. WTF was I thinking.
I am so frikking sick today , but do not just want to lay here in bed and whither away... I cant do much but I have managed to get about the house a bit, feed dogs breakfast, and drink 2 cups of coffee.. I cant even smoke a cig.. which its like 30 degrees out there anyway.. I can barely walk so just shuffling my feet along really. I am swelling and stuff is happening to my whole body.. I am sure more of that due to weather also.. I cant get settled.. I tried to read and keep mind occupied.. but my head doesn't want to read, watch tv, listen to music nothing. I couldn't even deal with playing my one games on my cell. I need to come up with game plan to get through this day.. like now.
Good thing about having a blog.. yep. .. I can say what I want.. when I want and how much I want. If I am nutty .. I can just set here and write blah blah blah 100 times if I want to !
I don't need FB or Instagram..WHERE PEOPLE ARE SHIT ANYWAYS !!!!
It's weird out there. It is weird in here.. Shit is just shit.. toooo much going on out there... Toooo much going on in my friggin head !
My brain is one of my most horrible enemies at the moment … Had so much I wanted to share early this a.m., but I am at a loss now.. FUCK ...

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"