Well yeah.... I am not extending anymore.. I can't... I am maxxed out.. and I know she's just here.. not anything special.. just a filler so... no more wasting my time.
I have texted.. messaged .. etc etc. For months nothing. I was ignored.. not even a thank u.. or what? .. or stop texting.. or are u ok mom.. or anything. I have still been showed by her.. and only her .. in every way... i am not in her realm of care or anything.. I stopped before and started texting again couple months ago.. so she would understand and know. I send lots of i love yous... etc etc... and nothing in return.
I even just send sweet pretty stuff saying be safe.. love you all.. kiss boys and nothing.
The last week with down to the wire.. on this awakening.. i sent specific stuff.. more i love yous.. proud of yous.. pics etc.. and still nothing.. not even a fuckoff.. so I see and know how much she cares.. 2 days ago sent her last text about ebs and specifics. Stay calm.. its all good.. love u's and a pic saying hiya.. I still wait fot a reply.. that i know will never come.. just like an apology and i love you.. i will never get..
I have to let go ! Nope.. no more.. she's got this.. and she chose long ago.. and im not in her circle. Wonder if she will ever care or anything... ? Doubt it.. but thats ok... that was my role .. my duty.. her... and i did that... so merely.. we are just the past ! That IS THAT... 😕
