When you set and look at a list you compiled the other day of what ya dids.. in just a few hours and then you think to yourself.. of all the things you still need to do and get even sadder.. because you don't have the energy to do those things and even madder cuz.. you were promised to have help with these things.. by multiple ppl and nothing was done,.. NO HELP CAME. No one helped and you struggled forward each day and did all you could to keep your head up and keep going.. it is sad on many levels.. it is pathetic actually.. I am there.. yet again.. why ... ?
I wish I would have known all those years ago.. what this meant.. The artist.. Eric Clapton.. The actors .. ALL of them ! The point behind money controls all.. I figured out.. but never knew it went so deep and wide in meaning.. once one knows that ALL CHANGES FOREVER !
you will soon see.. I promise.
So.. what was yesterday deal e o... you say..? This.. on a sheet of regular lined paper.. is 35 lines or so.. my .. did dos.. took up 30 lines.. if that says anything. My list was huge.. and grrr.. from taking apart furniture and cleaning it all etc,,... to the very basic task such as make some fresh ice tea. No need to go into whole list.. it covered inside, outside chores.. u name it. I did them though.. and that is where I stop with that.. U need to type them all out.. just a wate.. I know.. he knows and God knows.. that is what matters most of all..
Todays new list .. was to do the other stuff I wasnt able to do yesterday.. Clean grill.. clean rest of porch... dust 3 rooms and finish all.. vac etc.. finish cleaning 2 other bathrooms.. completely.. do the furbabies stuff.. clean toys ...check ears.. etc.. the only I dont do is his nails.. phil does those.. clean 5 ceiling fans... and more.. I am going to stop there,, already tired and I havent started yet.. KEK~ok.. another song for idk.. just cuz...
