Guessing I am lost !!!

 So, what the fuck... is it called.. when you have a great day and all is good... in your favor, and the then the next day.. just sucks ass.. everything goes wrong. ppl are shitty to u, you feel bad.. shit is just way off.... and I mean all the shit .. is way off. You woke up full of hope .. just to find out within 20 minutes that shit is just that.. shit !! even the dog stays in bed.. underneath all the covers.. cuz he senses and knows.. shit is not kosher in Denmark... or anywhere else for that matter. The furbaby didn't get up and uncover til 1100.. wow.. my dog is smart.

IDM... [ It DOESN'T Matter]

I do not understand for the life of me.. why people don't get me and don't understand. I  am not some complicated riddle. I tell people straight out. I ask right out. I state things repeatedly.. but still I am ignored, not listened to, or shrugged off.. and a lot of the time.. i am answered back... with what.. they think i like..

I will post repeatedly. I bring it up 50 times.. still doesn't matter.

I was told I'd go on post. Go to beach. Go to racetrack. Go to Savannah,.. go to Walking dead place... u name it.. 2 yrs now and nothing. 

I asked to go to waterfalls.. no dice. I asked to go to Auburn so many times.. tour , go see campus.. places to eat and window shop.. fuckin nothing.

I asked to go to racetrack like 5 times.. got completely ignored.

I came up with date night.. so we could see friends & go out.. did that once.. covid and shit hit.. but still with things being back open now etc.. i got shrugged off ! 

The guys have been gone for work and fishing.. but at beginning of Sept.. i said we should have a party when they got back.. WHY .. ? WHY? WHY? 

Nope ! I asked to go on the evening boat cruise on 18th.. it went on deaf ears. I said we needed to go to farm.. the pumpkin patch place. ..that too got ignored..  Halloween is coming soon and I have been shot down about everything. 

WTF... I HAVE NOTHING LEFT !!! 

Cold Fall has fallen & Things are VERY cold in my World

 Finally got my Ala-Georgian ID (DL) yesterday.. I had to go.. all my stuff was expiring, plus I have to be valid to vote  .. I am not a Democrat.. lol.. TRUMP/ PENCE  2020.. 

All went to Guntersville today except me.. FUCK.. I have been waiting for this vaca for a damn year and was slowly pushed away without even an I am sorry you cant go.. Yeah.. don't think my hubby felt bad at a ll.. but that's ok.. he will soon,.. when I am gone and this weighs on him.. the way he so easily disregards me.. 

The last day of ... the 9th level of Hell...

 

Ridin' out the storm

 It doesn't matter what we do... the day and our path is already laid out in stone.. if stuff is shit... just hold on tight and ride that shit out.. all we can really do.. Like seriously.. It is all we can do. I try to pretend and imagine stuff to help me through.. That however does not always work .. so I just go nutty really and wait for the crap storm to stop. It is torture.. IT IS !

I just don't understand sometimes how shit works like it does...??  Things go from ok smooth sailing to shit creek .. in like a second.. Fucked up it is.. oh well.. Here is a pretty thing of flowers for you to look at.. Hope it helps you get through today.. LOL
I am a fucking mess right now... ggrrr... LMFAO 😐

The next day in hell...

 I refuse to play these fucked up games anymore with people around me and in my life... Shit is not always about them.. Fuck ! I am so pissed.. I am more hurt really.. I go out of my way and do so much for everyone and just get shit on and shrugged aside.. I am fucking done I am !!! Gonna stick to myself and my house and my own shit from now on..  FUCK YOU ALL .. with much love of course !!! 

Tomorrows Equinox... 🎃

Happy Fall Y'all

Stuck or not stuck.. that is the question

Can't seem to get going. Stuck in so many grids right now... I really want to text my neighbors and see how all is going .. but nope.. why should I.., I do and have done so much... I am not going to keep setting myself up for failure.. My neighbors are just that... work buddies... just that.. They are not my friends.. so I wont be texting anyone today. 

Holdin' on..

O, no .. we might be trapped in hell.. if that is the case.. We are nearing to the 10th phase of it 

Same bat time.. Same bat channel

 Randomness.. Why do I  cry and think shit will get better I am outta my mind. The tension and air is soooo  thick everywhere today and especially since  this crazy year of 2020 has started

Heard things I needed to hear. Deciphered moments have been done and are just at a stand still right now.. Phil still Phil ..... Jade still Jade.. the usual.  

Typical Monday BS day....

Does it matter ?

Fall is here already.. even though the calender says it starts later in the week. 

Re-runs fueling the tv stations, covid , politics, religion, civil unrest, mother nature balancing us out.. with floods, fires, earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, .. it is just non stop.. really.

Trying to maintain.. myself, be a mom..a wife.. a friend.. etc !! But, I have been put in my place once again.. so I am done trying and now will be just content ridin it out .. I suppose.

My nails grew out & stress and my weakness has allowed me to start biting them again.. and  I am not dealing with my illness(s)  and crap properly.. but that matters not because I am alone in this !

Hoping & wishing uou Monday is better than mine.. I know we all are batting something right now.. it is yard out there... so I say to you.. tread lighty today ⚘

Today seems like...

All is nearing the end of the obstacle course. 

The dog is outta sorts even, and wants nothing to do with me.. curse you Mercury Retrograde... gggrrr.

I am so discumbobulated.. hate it. I've been away a bit.. I focused myself elsewhere & that didn't help shit. Well.. soooo.. I'm back. I am back & continuing on with my scattered memos & notes to no one.

Kindah feels like this bitch has come to visit and she has no plans on leaving anytime soon.. 

Hhmmm .. I gotta figure this out.. or not !

yeppp!!!

hhmmm...

So, months ago my hubby and I were walking through the back yard and found a piece of very old metal. Was some sort of window crank.. my hubby wanted to keep and put in our collection of stuff weve found on our property. I shrugged a bit and said why... its just a window crank. When he wasnt paying attn i took it and threw it back out over our fence... 

Yesterday.. the piece was in our yard again... it had mysteriously returned to our yard. Couldnt explain any of it.. etc.. we picked it up and after i placed it in our collection.. i remembered it and what had happened previously.. however my hubby had not remembered it etc.. 

This morning.. i spoke to it outloud and said.. ok.. let's see what happens this time. Took it and threw over fence.. opposite side of our yard.. I guess now I wait.  I did not mention any of this to him.. nor will I.. This will be my own experiment.. i suppose. He is a sharp fella sometimes.. he might have remembered it.. but didnt say anything cuz he didnt wanna freak me out.. IDK.  Either way.. WE SHALL SEE!!!

Tuesday hhmmmm.....

 

If nothing else today ... at least enjoy your java.. 😍