My Wednesday Realization

Unsure at this point what else I can do to get across to everyone.. I am changed and I am not like I was.. nor like them..., or do not work like they do ! You'd think after all this time it would have changed.. or with moving and starting a new... a light bulb would go off.. or something ...but still A HUGE NO!!

All I can do is cry and be mad.. and deal with the same shit over and over. I have NO choice. How do I continue on this way? How do I show them .. or even get them to care.. and wanna change? I don't get it. I don't understand. My husband still is so clueless and non-caring. He still thinks that continuing on this way and just going out and buying me shit.. fixes it. I even tell him stop, don't buy stuff.. break it down for him... straight and harsh.. and he still doesn't get it. Still he is determined to do shit his way and treat me the way he wants. I cant fight any harder or for much longer either.. I will just end up leaving this place and moving on to whatever comes next for me.