Scattered memos to Nobody: How , Oh how.. I could I forget..

Wednesday, January 2, 2019

How , Oh how.. I could I forget..

Shit I couldah had a V8.. The Macys New Years Day Parade is on tv right now.. LOL
Jesus.. could my life be anymore crappy at the moment? Ok.. so don't say that Rene.. don't jinx the lovely life you have. IT COULD GET SO MUCH WORSE FOR YOU.. and I certainly do not need that !
Just so I have my shit in check.. what have I managed to do today so far... hhhmmm.. I know, a shit load.. and I still have to finish laundry, finish mopping, vac whole house, clean my room, finish my bathroom, make tea, figure out dinner for later... deal with dogs.. feed blanco when he gets up.. he is sick.. poor baby.. deal with the other 2 which is a huge handful nonstop, and sweep back porch and front porch... finish last load dishes.. basically finish cleaning other side of house.. and clean all appliances.. jesus. I JUST WANT TO REST. I JUST WANT NO PAIN. I JUST WANT TO HAVE A HAPPY MEDIUM AND EVERYONE ELSE AROUND ME HANDLE THEIR SHIT AND PULL THEIR WEIGHT. I JUST WANT SHIT .. I WILL NEVER HAVE OR GET.
My New year slogan was to be the year of not giving a shit, but that wont happen. I have to find a slogan , a motto, that is realistic and just make it happen. I am pathetic, my life is pathetic.
so, back to Parade on tv.. I suppose I will listen while I finish mopping. I am hoping Blanco gets up soon,.. so I can do my room and just go crawl back in bed, try not to cry and focus on how bad I hurt etc. Maybe I might even get lucky and catch a good day on Firestick and be able to watch a movie actually.. but not counting on that... it will probably be TCM for ma later and I will get a chance to rest when all are coming in or waking up and my moment will then be gone... my window for me will be gone. My eyes are so bad, and fingers but still have to get this out..
I was mopping a bit ago in Bathroom and decided to weigh again for today.. my weight wow.. I went from 166 - to 173 whiole Phil has been home,, another story for later... and this a.m. I weighed 170.6 hhmmm. my body is in roller coaster mode .. like my brain. Go figure.. BRB..
back to house work I go !!! OH, yeah.. I hope my Hubby is getting rained on.. on the river and catching no fish ! lol.. No, I am not bitter at all... why would you think that? come on Ppl.. I am a nice person after all !! hahhaha.. Dont know where I would be without my humor ! Scattered in the wind somewhere by now .. I know !!

SO MUCH BRAIN FOG TODAY.. YUCK

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"