Somedays you wake up and you can just feel the suck in the air.. Well today is one of those days for me. I went to bed with a lot on my mind and of course things were unsettled and so now stuff is even worse.... GGRRR.. I have no other outlet other than this to spill the beans.. so here it goes Y'all....
Why bother clean the back porch area when no one else keeps it clean? No one else gives a whoha.. really they don't!!!!
Why bother sweeping the floor 75 times a day and cleaning over and over .. when it doesn't matter?
Why bother telling my daughter anything when she doesn't do it or listen?
Why bother repeating myself it doesn't matter?
Why bother to call, message, fb, text, my oldest daughter when she keeps ghosting me and treating me like crap? I thought when she had babies.. she would make an effort.. but still I pay for what they did. and still she wont talk with me nothing !! I hope someday she remembers who gave up their own life for her.. who sacrificed for her, who raised her, who cared for her .. etc etc etc.. from the time she was in 2nd grade until she turned 22.. I hope someday she remembers and feels only a small portion of the pain she has dished out to me over the last 8 years.. I can not cry over her and love her everyday anymore.. WHY BOTHER..? I have to let her go !!
GOODBYE...…. COURTNEY DANIELLE SNELL…..
GOODBYE...…………………………..
GOODBYE...…………………………..
Oh, MY...GOODNESS.. I could go on all damn day with .. THE WHY BOTHERS.. so I will just stop now..
Why Bother continuing..??? No one will probably ever read this anyways.. and if they do.. it wont matter 💔
