Ya know I just had the worst of the worst happen.. grrr.. I hate when I write a complete entry.. full page and some how I hit a button or move to fast and my laptop is so sensitive that it removed and deleted the whole entry.. dang it. It was good too.. Usually it saves as I go , but for some reason today it is not doing that.. hhmmm.. I WONDER ..
oh well..
That goes perfectly with the rest of my morning...
Back to the point already.. lol
When ya run out of shit to say and all your calming scents, sounds, and tricks aren't working.. Houston we have a HUGE problem !
Never let others make you feel bad about being sick Y'all. I deal with that in my house and I would not wish that on anyone. It is the worst. In my case.. I expected compassion and understanding and was given verbal , mental bullshit instead. Like I don't already feel bad enough I cant do the same shit as you and which I once could. Like I don't physically feel like a 18 wheeler just hit me and left the scene... I couldn't eat what and when you wanted to eat so instead I was made to suffer for that. That is Bullshit no matter how you serve it.. When you are around someone sick show more patience, love, and compassion for what they are going through.. Don't yell at them and make them feel worse.. for fucks sake ! That is just wrong on every level of humanity. We don't know how others are feeling or what they may be thinking and shunning and shaming and scolding them in a time of need.. I AM PRETTY SURE IS NOT THE ANSWER.. TO ANY SITUATION. So, if you are in this scenario.. on either side of the coin.. just stop and don't let it happen.. show compassion and have a heart damn it !!
OH my, where has this morning gone already? I have been in a time numbing trap since about 0800.. that cant be good. But, at least I am out now and still am able to realize I was in one.. when I stop knowing is when everyone should worry.. I wont know. .. cuz I wont remember but others SHOULD notice. Which leads me to my next point... I do this blog for many reasons.. mostly because my hands and fingers cant write anymore well,, and certainly because I need to get it out.. this is my therapy and Journal really.. so am I worried about others.. family and friends(ok).. reading it? No I am not! I am not ashamed to say what I have to say.. I am honest about what happens to me daily.. and seeing as how I realized my closest peeps.. have NO CLUE and know absolutely 0 about me.. this has to be a good thing for someone.. Maybe one day it will even be used as an enlightenment tool for them.. I doubt it.. but it COULD HAPPEN SOMEDAY !
IT COULD...😉💕
My next point also should be taken very serious as well.. I want to be loved & valued not only on special days.. but EVERYDAY !! I just don't understand why this is such a task. To be loved and wanted to be valued.. you'd think that would just be something ones do everyday for the ones and to the ones they love.. You should be on the team of your loved one.. NOT THE OPPOSING TEAM WHICH IS TRYING TO TAKE THEM OUT. I don't know.. maybe its just me.. but I thought that's what life and love is suppose to be about after all.. I could be the odd man out.. on this one too however !! ggrrrr… I guess just because I have a caring heart doesn't mean others do !!
Had to throw a funny in there. I don't do this.. but I figured it would lighten up this post.. heheheheheh. 😜 Sometime I get deep into my noodle and I try to keep myself focused and side tracked by the humor and giggle factor.. one of the last tricks I have left in my goodie bag.
I am simply me and very raw most the time.. if you know me at all.. you know that.. if you don't know that.. don't feel bad.. even my family and close loved ones don't !! I don't fault you... LMAO
