The day started out with promises.. I was open to it and excited( believe it or not).. and by lunch.. yeah that was all gone. With each passing second of the clock.. shit just got worse and worse.
In the end I did spend a drop of time with hubby and it was like any other day or worse really.. yesterday was suppose to be a day to celebrate me and yeah that didn't happen on any plane.. !
I did however get my crispy cream donut at like midnight last night and a kiss.. still haven't touched the donuts.. waiting for Jade to get up.. so basically that will be sometime this afternoon probably. WELL IT IS THE TRUTH. I tell no lies.. cuz honestly I couldn't make this shit up,, even if I tried really really hard.
The facts.. my neighbors hid from me as to not have to tell me happy bday.. The people I have bent over backwards for and reached out to at every end.. didn't even say hi to me yesterday let alone a bday greeting. I was so sad.. then got pissed off etc and went through all the emotions.. Then people that are family that I have known most my life.. really showed me without a doubt they don't give a shit about me period.. Clear down to everyone of them... but one ...untagging themselves on a bday memory with awesome pics.. THAT HURT. I deleted them all on fb and I AM DONE. Just like with Mel situation.. I AM DONE. No more reaching out.. no more I am here when they need me.. no more nothing. I don't need them, Allmons Family, Phils family, My family.. NONE OF THEM. Screw them all.. so was I a bit worked up on my bday about ppl not even wishing me helloes .. YES, YES I WAS. I am not mad now.. FUCK THEM AND THEIR BS.. They are all just pissed I have a better life than them.. I was always too good for most of those bastards anyway.. they have always known it, I knew it, and everyone else knew it to. I just thought over the years however.. they would let all that go and just LOVE ME.. and nope.. SO FUCK THEM ALL !
Honestly I always lowered my self for them anyways.. and why should I ever do that.. !! Why? Well I wont anymore.. and like I said as for all the bitches around here.. to include neighbors I thought were friends.. well guess what.. You are gonna see a whole different Rene now mother fuckers.. I am tired of being used, treated like shit, taking advantage of.. etc.. You want something text or call someone else bitches !! I AM DONE !
Fake mother Fuckers up in this area,, and there s nothing more that I dislike than that !! FAKE FUCKERS are a waste of my moments,, especially when I don't have many of those left to live. Why keep hurting and crying because others are jealous of me and fucking petty bitches.. FUCK THAT.
So get your ideas, opinions, and shit from now on you clueless bitches.. I am done with the lot of you.
I have learned this lesson well and just one more sign proving to me.. I am not meant to have friends and a life here... that I am going to be gone soon. You can say my words are morbid, negative, or call it whatever you will.. I call it honesty, facts and what happens in my daily life. I own every bit of this bs crap in these suitcases strode about the floor. Period. I am sure I am forgetting and leaving a lot out,, Matter of fact I know I am.. but this is enough for me to remember... and others to just get a small glimpse of what my yesterday was like. Well oops.. I mean my everyday life here in Alabama.
