When ya hear Village People songs in your head .. just randomly.. there could be a problem.
When you are having a conversation in your head with very dear old friends.. IN GERMAN. Yep, the train has left the station folks.. LMFAO
My world last 2 days alone has reached new highs and lows and I can't friggin keep up anymore. Kinda scary.. indeed it is.
Kind words of the day: Your small triumphs matter y'all. Your mistakes matter.. your feelings, your passions, your quiet struggles.. THEY ARE ALL VERY VALID AND WORTHY! YOU are worthy~
Before I get into more medical hoopla.. this I must share.
So.. if you have been reading my posts you will have noticed I was a bit upset with people around me over the last week or 2. So it gets better folks.. Now remember I can't make this shit up.. even if I am a Teacher.. lol.
So.. bday goes by .. people avoided me.. so they wouldn't have to say anything to me.. which was stupid,, all they had to do was say hi and happy bday Rene.. I didn't expect anything more than that. back to story.. Yesterday I hear my neighbor early out back on his riding mower.. which I could tell he was on our side.. our property behind our house and back gate.. and I know he is mowing a bit.. I thought geeee.. that's nice. I have been so sick and its been so hot I haven't been able to get out there and do stuff... I have done and my hubby has done loads of stuff for them.. I thought that was so helpful and sweet and I was relieved actually I wouldn't have to go out there and do that.. its a lot and its hard work etc. Bit after I hear his stuff stop and I was feeling odd about it.. cuz there is a lot out there and he was only on it a few minutes.. but anyway.. I get a text.. Now mind you.. I have gotten no texts from him at all for weeks now.. not even a hiya.. but I get this text from him saying he mowed my back area.. it was basically needing it and an eye sore.. ( to him yes)..
Paraphrasing here.. But that was my Bday present from him. It was very short and snide.. regardless if he meant it to be.. it was.. which I know he did... But even though it has upset me and pissed me off. I send a nice text back thanking him and explaining I had been meaning to do for couple weeks but couldn't and my hubby has been busy .. so I appreciated that etc.
Really brewing on it now.. I get more worked up and upset.. cuz I know he was only out there a minute..so I put it off and try to forget.. Well later hubby gets home and I have made dinner etc etc etc.. and we start talking about it.. I said ya know we really need to go look because even if he did that .. we have more to do and close up weed eating etc by fences etc.. We had friends over and later as we say our goodbyes and are outside looking , talking, and getting ready to water etc.. I say I am going to walk around house and fences and look back there.
Biggest mistake I made.. OMFG.. Needless to say and short version... a drop was mowed by fence (bout a few feet).. ok.. in all fairness.. he mowed about 30 ft long, by 10ft wide rectangle area...and that was it. I started to cry... I got pissed, sick and upset.. because FUCK now I have to finish that and DO ALL OF THE SHIT LIKE I ORIGINALLY WAS GOING TO AND NEEDED TO.
I got all worked up.. because he did that, his shit text message making me feel like shit about all of it.. and then THAT WAS MY SO CALLED BDAY PRESENT.. Really after a year of doing all we could and can to help him.. I am not gonna even start on that !! The whole scenario made me so sick.. I couldn't even keep the drop of food down I had finally managed to eat after days.
WORST SCENERIO EVER !!! REALLY FUCK !!!
Can't make this shit up folks. REALLY I CAN'T ~ 😞😢
