Been struggling hard last few days. About 3 or 4 days now having this new issue with my insides. I am unsure if it is Small intestines.. Pancreas.. or what.. Honestly all are an issue.. Every organ I have is in pain and wanting to stop already.. I am sure. It comes and goes. SO much pain I cant eat. move, do anything.. even lying still in bed.. on meds.. Hemp oils on it and other stuff.. I cant stop the pain. Lower back too.. My hubby been putting all kinds of stuff on my back and I gave up with ice.. or heating pads. DONT WORK.
I just have to ride it out..12th was worst and longest.. Then it was in spurts and yesterday it was once in afternoon and then again last night. The pain has increased and the times and lengths now vary.. only thing I can do is keep track of it.. not as if it matters though..
It feels like someone has a weed eater inside my body and its ripping everything up and trying to force it outta my body.. I also am having issues with body gases and fluids.. different from ever before. I cant burp even and my other gases have all but stopped. My muscles and everything in there is braking down. I am not going to be in here much longer I suppose. Last night I honestly thought I wasn't going to see this morning. Couldn't sleep but hour half if even thought. Couldn't breathe and trying to deal with my infections and now all this crap. I don't know what to do. Trying to figure out how to manage it.. warning signs etc.. last night I knew it was coming back.. my whole body did a complete turn around and almost shut down mode. But I tried to ignore and just deal with what was going on around me with Jade and Sparky.. My chest has gotten so bad.. it literally feels like someone has a vice grip squeezing my tubes closed. we shall see.. I suppose.
Todays giggle and chuckle:
I hate when people ask me what I am doing tomorrow.. I don't even know what I am doing right now... LMAO❤
