Scattered memos to Nobody: Tuesday Truths... as told by me

Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Tuesday Truths... as told by me

A... Don't cry to me about not sleeping 12 hours.. and upset tummy when you have no idea the pain level I am living with right at this moment... Just for a SMALL example.. My head hurts so bad. feels like it is going to pop off.. Back of my head .. is straight pain.. like skull has been fractured...can only see out of one eye and its blurring blobbing and colorful. Every bone and muscle in my body hurts... I can barely move. My Throat is swollen.. my lips and mouth are tore up.. I cant taste,, can barely swollow.. and its extremely painful.. lips, teeth, all inside my mouth. Ears ringing.. one is thumping and pain. Unsure what new infection that may be. Fingers and hands swollen.. cramps in my toes soo bad.. they are unmovable some of them..right arm and top side clear through shoulder are so bad.. I can barely move, but I do.. Veins all over my body are swollen and hurt so bad.. lupas stuff VERY BAD TODAY AND LAST FEW DAYS.. don't wanna even get out of bed.. but I do and I work hard all day while you piss and moan and stay in bed watching tv and doing absolutely nothing all day.. except eat, smoke cigs, and snuggle with ur dog..a drop..
I have only slept like 3 hours in a week.. and that was horrible.. and you are tired.. WAHHH.
Hips feel like they are being pulled apart.. legs are giving out.. and sooooo much more.. I will stop there.. cuz I said small example.. but as for your whining... JUST DONT. !! I cant handle hearing it anymore. My body is so riddled with disease, pain, infections, Auto immune diseases etc.. only few things you can see... but just because you cant see it.. doesn't make me responsible for catering to your every damn whim and need today and every fucking day..
B... When I finally.. after few hours decide to go out in garage area, because trash man came and I need to get trash can etc.. and I realize that the garage has been wide open for like 5 or more hours.. with not even a sorry or care in the world to what ya just did.. WOW.. NO OTHER WORDS COVER IT! EXCEPT SAD... PISSED ETC ON MANY LEVELS. You didn't even care enough to make sure I was safe when you left the house this morning. But then again that fits right in with everything else.. so yeah whatever.
C... I will combine and simplify ..thet Insults, disregard, disrespect, using, abused,, by family.. and all people around me .. and those not even around me.. I AM JUST so WTF?

In conclusion.. with even so very much being left out.. TODAYS TRUTH IS MY LIFE SUCKS

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"