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3 days away and not a thought as to if it means anything etc.. not with me ..of course ...but all around me.. I once again last night was shown that people are dicks and don't care about me at all.. I sent my neighbors a text message about having the rest of their gifts I was going to bring over there for them today.. and only one replied back.. saying I didn't need to give them anything.. like I am just passing off shit to them... we either make them fresh goodies.. do stuff to help.. always on the hand stuff.. Or give them fresh stuff we just buy.. we share food, donuts.. meals.. etc.. their gift was a bottle of wine phil got .. in a Santa holder.. with card.. and a bag.. that I got them mugs, a cute Christmas Towel.. and a beautiful candle I ordered also for their home !! So now after last night.. I am just like screw you.. half the time they treat me like crap now anyway. Lynne hasn't bothered to even message back or say one word to me since Halloween.. wtf? especially when we went out of our way to include them in our lives.. so ungrateful really now is how I look at it..we didn't have to invite them to our party etc.. we have done more than enough for them in over a year and it really upsets me now !!!! NO MORE SHALL I GIVE AND TRY TO SUPPORT AND SHOW COMPASSION FOR THEM.. THEY ARE NOT FRIENDS MERELY THE COUPLE THAT LIVES NEXT DOOR TO ME.
I shall even stop bringing up their trash can etc.. fuck that..
Feels not really like Christmas.. no emotion.. no compassion  ..nothing !!! SO yes.. I have given up on the neighbors. SHIT JUST IS WHAT IT IS