Ok.. me staying busy and focused is not working. I'm so sick.. ppl are assholes, and shit is just shit. I have STUFF coming out of every hole in my body... literally... yes, I am serious. Blood, parasites, nanotech bs, you name it.. living shit is eating my insides out and what is worse... ppl have seen it and still do nothing to help me or even show concern. I am so over this.
I keep fighting.. but why am I doing that? no.. really.. why? ??? I am the stoopiod one .. I suppose.. no. I know I am. I keep thinking shit will get better and it does not. I keep hoping .. ( there is the key word) .. hope.. shit will change etc, but it does not. I am stuck in shit, with shit.. full of shit and I suffer greatly in every way every day. Sick, ppl around me, being alone really.. struggles and pain.. afraid and alone.. etc etc etc. I am done being good to everyone else and letting myself suffer.. I can not even get someone to run up the street for me and mail a box off... which really.. the box.. the items.. were me being nice too... I already spent and sent 150 worth and 5 beautiful items... to a woman that said she needed bigger sizes.. and never even sent me the others to return.. so I am out over 250 $ at least in all costs.. 10 items... etc etc etc. It is just stupid ! I am stupid ! Fuck the box. Screw the ppl.. screw everyone and everything ! Cheeky does not even begin to describe my attitude right now. I am over cooked, and DONE.. I am done💔
Hope y'all are in a better PLACE than I am today
