As my days start melting again in to one.. I find myself getting just more and more frustrated.. for Pete sake already.
Think I would be used to it, but my body goes up and down.. just when I get settled and all is well.. I fall backwards again.
Relatively calm since earlier. I been trying to keep myself occupied .. so as not to think about all the chaos which is today.
Can't keep any food in my body however.. I eat a drop just for it to come back out one end or the other. Loosing weight again fast.. and last 2 days drank soda and ate junk food just to keep weight on...oh well.. shit, shit, shit & blah.. blah.. blah.
Todays chaos.. well let's see...hhhmmmm.. Weather, Youngest daughter & all her stuff. Pets.. their stuff..(which in itself is a lot). House, Husband, Bro.. you name it.
News, Current Events, Politics, and all the crazy which exists out there... that I stress & worry over constantly !!
( I will break that all down later I am sure)! I think the hardest though right now is being sick and having so many issues at once and I am alone in this ..just trying to get through each day.. I have No "Team"... No "Circle of love" I have me and only me... and with all the boys (3 dogs) requiring so much from me,, and Bo now being on Insulin shots 2 times a day and other things with them.. it only adds to me long lists of dailies.. to not only remember ,but get done. I am so so screwed and embracing the suck now on a regular. But, can't control any of that.. just stuff with me and that's it ~ I really need a magic wand... I would wear that shit out in probably 48 hours.. LMAO
