News Flash

Back in the down cycle again I guess.. I am doing worse health wise today.. having a rough go of shit this a.m. for reals and I am exhausted and at my limits emotionally and in every sense... All was well and just like.... that at a drop of a hat.. I asked him to look at a video and I got growled at and talked AT like a dog.. and so I said a few things and away I walked. I cant continue to battle with him everyday just because he hates I am sick.. and or doesn't love me anymore and wants me gone and I am still here. I cant live on an emotional roller coaster... it only makes my health and state of everything... 10 times worse. We go to bed and he is content cuddling with a pillow.. while I am sick and fucked up all night . in pain etc.. and cant sleep.. so I lay there hurting all night.. and he gets up and just acts like all is ok.. IT IS NOT OK... YOU CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS TO ME DAMN IT !!!
When a person has no love line and or life line.. They inevitably want to die for they have no reason to live and or be here anymore .. and I AM SO PAST THAT !!!
Just a quick update!!!