Scattered memos to Nobody: Saturday Morning.. {Scream it out session...}

Saturday, August 3, 2019

Saturday Morning.. {Scream it out session...}

Loved the site in GA where they film Walking Dead. Loved touring Auburn. Loved Going to races.. right by our house. Loved going to Benning to see celebrations. Loved going to Beach, Restaurants we picked out, and all the Falls & Attractions. Oh Wait.. I HAVENT BEEN TO ANY OF THEM YET. FUCK.... Oh well... I can dream I suppose. I even loved the day away .. just us two.. to see cool shit and destress. Oh wait.. that never came either. I need to be a dreaming bitch I suppose. He says maybe like 2 times in 10 months .. come on boat with me.. KNOWING DAMN WELL I CANT DO THAT.. but he has done his part.. he asked. JACKASS .. and YES, I have told him this to his face multiple times and it still matters not. I don't just set on here and talk shit about my family.. I tell them to their faces first.. and then when repeating that in different formats still doesn't work.. I resort to just bitching here.. Gotta share right ? lol
I miss having a frikkin life .. I DO ! Today would have been a great day to get away.. but that's what he did.. he went fishing again.. every damn weekend he has gone.. Hope he is enjoying his effin day !!
When you tell your man your shits getting worse and you really wanna spend a day with just him and the first thing he does is rush out side and pulls his boat out, and stays outside doing fishing preparing.... you know for sure you are not the priority. !! I AM NOT THE PRIORITY !!!
I have to wonder to myself how is he going to feel when he comes home soon after a grand day with friends and fishing, and he finds me dead in the house or yard..... HHHMMM... Don't think it will matter much.. I suppose.. and if it does.. it wont last long. I will not ask , beg, cry, hint, nothing anymore to go anywhere or to do anything from any of the 2 others that live in this house with me.. Our daughter just as bad.. 50 times over.. made plans and never one follow through. They worry about only them.. and thats ok I get it.. I JUST HOPE I WILL BE GONE SOON. Only I will leave them and not come back ~ Such as life I suppose. We all gotta go someday.. My number is coming fast.. but oh well.. It's just a number after all !!!!

Look at me go.. hahhaha. I ordered stuff off amazon. hahah (I'll get them).. nope.. lol
I only ordered house stuff and a few small items.. so doesn't count really!
No, I am not a crazy shopper.. online or otherwise. I am a simple girl.. ( If that is such a thang') !!

Adventures still to be had

My list is long.. (but I'm condensing to only 10 things)

Learn to play Chess
Learn to play Piano
Sky Diving
Hot Air Balloon ride over Grand Canyon
Visit Arlington Cemetery.. Tomb of Unknown Soldier etc
See Mt. Rushmore
See Lady Liberty up close & in person
Visit Hawaii.. see Volcano in person
After Sooooo many years of Marriage.. I would love to have an actual Wedding ceremony or re-new vows and do something in grand style
Have a Day.. with no pain, no sickness, no ggrrr… just have one PEACEFUL and HARMONIOUS day

Seeing as how I left so many out.. I might change this from time to time to add other stuff in the mix .Keeping it real people.. just keeping it REAL !

Lighten up Already

A man walks into a bar and sees his friend sitting beside a 12-inch pianist. He says to his friend, "That's amazing. How did you get that?"

The man pulls out a bottle and tells him to rub it and make a wish. He rubs the bottle, and a puff of smoke pops out and tells him that he can have one wish. So the man thinks and says, "I wish I had a million bucks."

The genie says, "OK, go outside, and your wish will be granted."

The man goes outside, but all he finds are ducks filling the sky and roads. He goes back in and tells his friend what happend, and his friend replies, "I know. Did you really think I wanted a 12-inch pianist?"