What I asked for... for my bday.. Not all.. just like one of them.. ❤😀
or small new bags for the boards we have.. Ha
All small and inexpensive items that I really wanted and liked .. and things that would help me stay geared to looking better, doing more,, and feeling better..
And this is what I got..
Which I love candles.. etc.. But seriously.. that is what he got our friend and neighbor the other day for her bday.. not same scents.. but damn.. REALLY.. the SAME generic gift.. WOW !!
I just wanted nice messages saying hey and thinking about ya.. which didn't come !
and I thought maybe dinner with fam, take out for dinner, yummy something for desert.. you know..? and I woke to flowers.. which were awesome.. card, and candles, custard.. spent day by myself sick until almost 5. He Never shrugged about dinner.. wanted me to cook.. Stopped and got ice cream.. but no one especially me wanted Ice cream.. I just wanted a donut .. like now for week and half been asking.. anyways.. he eats.. later so we could have some kind of bday hoorah.. I said lets eat drop of cake.. small piece .. then I got sicker..
shit got worse .. He tells jade later on phone to bring home donuts.. that got here at midnight.. better late than never I suppose.. But the day was just like any other day if not worse !! BDAYS SUCK..
Everything was just weird and off.. Everything was unsettled.. it was just a yuck Thursday..
So.. now you know why I never ask for stuff anymore... because when I say stuff or ask.. it never comes.. I am always let down, cast aside, and side tracked.. I am tired of that.
Kinda like other stuff though.. I ask, beg, show, tell, etc and still nothing.. no help, no concern, nothing. and this is why I don't like living most days !!! JUST SAYIN ' !!
Good note however.. I decided this morning early.. I was going to buy me one thing and I picked the sweatshirt.. the one with Pink on top.
GO ME !!
