Friday, October 28, 2022
Thursday, October 27, 2022
Never really found myself in this kindah spot, but I AM SO WORRIED AND ILL PREPARED ... It is Thursday and Phil leaves Monday am and all this shit is suppose to hit.. I am a frikkin mess really.. week has been horrible in every way. I am still so sick.. and it is week 8 .. Saturday it is his team against mine in Football. Kentucky v Tennessee.. yeah that is not gonna be pretty.. I just hope TN wins so I can keep peace until he leaves.. this weekend is key. What if stuff happens before he leaves.. and he doesn't go.. what is gonna happen? I am nuts about him leaving.. yes and no really.. IT IS different this time. I am even trying to gather shit for him to take with him... to Stewart.. well that is nutso.. that he usually does... EVERYTHING is different I tell ya. [ Jus stay here .. Rene.. heheheh]
Wednesday, October 26, 2022
Monday, October 24, 2022
Things getting harder to swallow.. they are. We are within a 30 day window now of Midterms.. more like within 20ish.. dont know the date at the moment.lol... This week gonna be nutso to say the least. I am not scared in anyway.. I am just so over waiting at this point really. I see the unfold.. I know the unfold of the movies.. but this is beyond nuts..
Was thinking this week for the start of things, but now not sure.. I see stuff going out til 11/22 Gregorian calendar dates. I am so tired.. I am not so sure what to think at this point. This shit could keep playing out... Trump said 6 years and we are at that 6 yrs point all most.. It is end of October and Sept still on 2 calendars.. so we are in Deep September still through this week... October for me had 40 days at least.. I know .. you are saying .. what??? Yeah.. I will brake it down again later if you still do not understand ppls. WTF???
I am sick.. soon to be very alone and shit will shutdown and I have a feeling I will be screwed, but that's the norm so... no biggy really.
1234, 123, 321.. these are the times I wake up every night.. for the last week or more... something with my face.. other shit.. etc.. it is fucked up. Trying to figure it out.. multiple things there .. working on all of them at once.. to fast track the answers.. GGRRRRR..
My Guardian is fired.. lmao.. yep.. fired. You suck.. dang it. hahahhaha
Halloween.. IDK.. I AM SO CONFUSED... THEY NEED TO SHUT THIS SHIT DOWN BEFORE 31ST.. PLZ.. PLZ.. PLZ!!!!π
I AM TIRED !!!!
Saturday, October 15, 2022
Friday, October 14, 2022
Coffee talk with myself this a.m... Topics covered were :
- If someone loves you.. they DO NOT do stuff to annoy you and hurt you on purpose.. even if they are pissed off .. for no reason. If you are sick and sleeping and they come in .. set by you , .. and do everything as loudly as possible, and throw the dogs toys over you so dog purposely tramples on you.. there is a problem there.. Just my thought on the matter any way. Anything done with malice & real true intent is not ok.
- If you are standing in a circle of ppl you know.. and the talk and gossip of the day is about one of the other peeps in the group.. and one starts off with a tale of nastiness , deceit, trickery of one of the others .. and at the end of the tale.. it goes like this..and then he got caught... and everyone freaks out because he was caught and is voicing so.... and NO ONE SAYS ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT A HORRIBLE ACTION HE HAD DONE .. THE RESULT OF IT.. ETC ETC ETC... THE FACT HE HAD COMMITTED THAT CRIME IN THE FIRST PLACE.... you might be hanging with the wrong kind of peeps. Think about your circle... Think about this for a bit. The company we keep.. is KEY.
- If the pic is blue, green, and yellow.. but others still see grey.. black.. and off red... THERE IS STILL A PROBLEM.
Wednesday, October 12, 2022
As the event gets closer.. Things are getting very raw and real to say the least. Emotions run high.. I have to distance myself a bit to keep my sanity and so much tension in the air ... is an understatement. Man.. come on 2nd coming of Jesus... lol.
I love and pray for you all. Stay well. Stay aware. Stay safe & keep fighting the good fight Y'all...
Have a gr8 Humpday... Xo Xo
Yesterday afternoon I was reminded on what it means to be a Southern Gal.. well not really that, but the smells and (things) of a Southern girl when it comes to home & Garden thingies... hhahahha
Fresh fried Green Tomatoes.. Can not replace that with anything. Fact ! ( My house smells yummy)...
Citrus robust through the house... even on a chilly day.. Either Sweet Tea .. coffee. or a warm Cider smell. Blueberry (sweet) oil smells in the air. Thoughts of making an apple or peach cobbler... Now.. it is Wednesday .. so It is time to start planning and executing what will be cooked for etc.. the week 7 NCAA Football games this weekend.. Come on Saturday ~ GAME DAY.. It is all just a rough draft of what will come, but ya gotta start somewhere right-e-o? Fresh Linen.. smells of cleanliness and crispness through the house and in the air outside around the house.. Yes,... laundry freshener smells linger... And not only in the house.. but the smells and chores done outside.. fall things.. cleaning, harvesting, new growth.. beautiful flowers.. plants.. and Autumn THINGIES... ahahahah I think I just love using the word thingies... π
Tuesday, October 11, 2022
Mornin' beautiful Ppl
Sunday, October 9, 2022
What say you?
POTUS post about turning off the Christmas Lights and celebrating Halloween At Mar A Lago tells me its all gonna blow up this week.
As you know we are also flipping the Calendar back to the Julian Calendar. We would have these days of darkness then flip the Calendar. So October will be a 40 day Month.
We were told Christmas is coming early. This also makes me feel that we will then be celebrating Christmas on November 9.
Mirror 9/11 - 11/9.
This way of writing the date will be changed too. Day/Month/Year.
Jesus was born on September 11. Darkness ends & we will have 4 weeks to get prepared for Christmas & the Victory Celebration/Inauguration/Concert Event on 11.11
In the 10 Days of Darkness God Sends down his Angels to help us.
Those in the Federal Witness Protection Program will be walking out to guide and Unite us all.
Many will be performing 11.11
We are FIGHTING for LIFE.
We are FIGHTING for GOOD. We are at WAR [@]. NOT EVERYTHING WILL BE CLEAN. [SCARE] NECESSARY EVENT.
Do you TRUST the US Military?
Do you TRUST the Chain Of Command?
Have FAITH - WE ARE IN CONTROL. PATRIOTS.
PATRIOTS DAY. HAVE FAITH. YOU WERE CHOSEN FOR A REASON. YOU ARE BEING PROVIDED THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF INTEL TO EVER BE DROPPED PUBLICLY IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD.
USE IT - PROTECT AND COMFORT THOSE AROUND YOU.
WHERE WE GO ONE, WE GO ALL.
Q
Native Americans Left A Code Of 20 Rules For Mankind To Live By
1. Rise with the sun to pray.
2. Be tolerant of the people who are lost on their path.
3. Search for yourself, by yourself. Don't
4. Treat your guests in your home with consideration.
5. Don't take what isn't yours either from a person, community or culture.
6. Respect every little thing placed upon the earth.
7. Honor other people’s thoughts, desires, and words.
8. Never speak of others in a mean way. 9. All people make mistakes.
10. Negative thoughts cause illness of the mind, body, and soul.
11. Nature is not FOR us, but a PART of us.
12. Children are the seeds of our future.
13. Avoid hurting other people's heart.
14. Be honest at all times.
15. Keep yourself balanced.
16. Make conscious decisions regarding who you'll be and how you'll react.
17. Respect the privacy and personal space of those around you.
18. Be true to yourself first.
19. Respect others religious beliefs.
20. Share your good fortune with others.
Saturday, October 8, 2022
So far... so good. Iam hanging tough. I did however go to bed last night very upset and conflicted.. yep.. I was put back to neighbor status.. No walks with the NEIGHBORS for me. I am not a friend.. THAT was made very clear to me yet again.. Damn I am stupid. I keep getting in the same situation thinking the end game will be different and I will have FRIENDS to hang with and nope.. the desired outcome.. never comes.. still neighbor status. I AM DONE.
Football is on.. yay. SEC show til later .. to keep me occupied.. of course.. I have never watched this much football.. even though I know it is rigged etc and i know basically what is coming.. I do not know how it will play out.. so I watch. Better than watching news and etc.. at least I think so anyway... Just my take on it.
Away I go for now.. but I will leave you with this. Bless you all on this Saturday mornin' .. stay safe Y'all
Friday, October 7, 2022
Fry day finally. Not as if it matters.. all the days seem to run together now. but. Friday.. yay !
Breakfast Blend settling in my system finally after 3 cups.. heheheh. it is finally 0600 .. or a few minutes after and why the hell am I awake? Been up and going strong since 0400.. what? hahahha.So.. if you might be wondering.. got that package mailed off yesterday afternoon.. had to get neighbor to take it, but it got sent. Yay.. one less thing to worry with and about. Football 2morrow.. yes! Hubbs home for 4 days.. what? yup. he took off work.. did a 4 day instead of 3 day with Columbus Day Monday.. yeah well... fake Holiday.. fake BS about Columbus.. etc .. but day off work right? Anyways.. I imagine he will go fishing.. but it is.. what it is.. and nothing I can do about it. He has off.. so gonna stay positive. I get some time with him.. We shall see. Doubt it, but I can dream right?
Shutdown and event is almost here. We are getting closer.. thank goodness.. cuz this shit is killin' me. GGrrrrr. People see now though and the rest well.. HELLO GREAT AWAKENING ~ Sorry you were tooooooo blind to see !! Prayers for you guys especially.. moving forward,,, you will be hit the hardest.. TRIED TO HELP. SORRY..
Moving on now,... hhmmmm.. what shall I do first? Sky is the limit y'all. kisses
Thursday, October 6, 2022
yup
~Yom Kippur starts tonight .. Julian Calendar... Through tomorrow midnight... it is the day of atonement. hhmm... anyone interested?? hahahha
~Week 6 .. college ball. Yay 4 π !
~ It is only Thursday, and I am so lost... I keep telling myself... it is Thursday !!! grrrrrr
~ What does a person have to do to get a fuckin small package mailed off these days? really..? I hate ppl sometimes.. They do what benefits them.. when they choose the time.. etc etc etc... so over doing anything for ANYONE! Some ppl jus do not deserve to go forward really.. they are mean, selfish, shitty people.. and just should go to their own island somewhere else.. I say. I am sooooooo tired. Can ya tell? yep.. it is pretty obvious.. I'd say.
Prayers and love to you all... be safe out there & be good to others today !!!
For the life of me ... I can NOT understand why ppl do bad things to other ppl on purpose.. why they plot and plan shitty acts against others.. Why do these ones exist? I do not get it. Can they not go already? seriously... ?? I am so over being a 52 year old woman that is scolded and controlled like I am a thing or his lil pet.. which does shit on his time frame and follows his every wish.. which pet isnt the right word.. because he treats the pets better than me. He watches every move.. inside & out.. windows doors.. electric and water use daily.. when i am on phone.. what I do.. etc etc etc.. If I am sick he is mad.. I lay down ,, he gets mad.. . I do things on his time frame . things to suite him. all when he wants or doesnt want. He will do something 3 days after I ask.. when he knows it needed to be done 3 days ago. he relishes and loves being in control.. and being the one.. being in charge. being the first.. being the one to make every decision.. etc.. he enforces it also.. and he laughs at me in my face and talks shit and loves it.. he loves belittling me and watching me either suffocate.. or drown. I can not win. I have no help either.. because all think he walks on water.. just wait .. they will soon all see I hope.. Today hhmmm... sink or swim?
Wednesday, October 5, 2022
yeah, Who cares?
Ok.. me staying busy and focused is not working. I'm so sick.. ppl are assholes, and shit is just shit. I have STUFF coming out of every hole in my body... literally... yes, I am serious. Blood, parasites, nanotech bs, you name it.. living shit is eating my insides out and what is worse... ppl have seen it and still do nothing to help me or even show concern. I am so over this.
I keep fighting.. but why am I doing that? no.. really.. why? ??? I am the stoopiod one .. I suppose.. no. I know I am. I keep thinking shit will get better and it does not. I keep hoping .. ( there is the key word) .. hope.. shit will change etc, but it does not. I am stuck in shit, with shit.. full of shit and I suffer greatly in every way every day. Sick, ppl around me, being alone really.. struggles and pain.. afraid and alone.. etc etc etc. I am done being good to everyone else and letting myself suffer.. I can not even get someone to run up the street for me and mail a box off... which really.. the box.. the items.. were me being nice too... I already spent and sent 150 worth and 5 beautiful items... to a woman that said she needed bigger sizes.. and never even sent me the others to return.. so I am out over 250 $ at least in all costs.. 10 items... etc etc etc. It is just stupid ! I am stupid ! Fuck the box. Screw the ppl.. screw everyone and everything ! Cheeky does not even begin to describe my attitude right now. I am over cooked, and DONE.. I am doneπ
Hope y'all are in a better PLACE than I am today
Monday, October 3, 2022
New day.. new week has started. Last week in loop I believe.. hopefully. Ppl going down, crazy weather and shit.. everyone has gone mad and is at the edge.. well that is right where they are suppose to be. Trump will swoop in and be our 2nd coming , King, & Saviour. Trust & have faith in the plan. Yes.. I still have blind faith. THAT WILL NOT CHANGE! I have seen the truth, lived the truth. and now I continue to fight.. so others see the truth. Someone has to do it here..RIGHT? yep. Might as well be me.. I have nothing to gain & nothing to lose except .. THE LOVE OF GOD !
Don't be a douche today !
Friendly morning advice... π
Sunday, October 2, 2022
- Saturday game day.. turned out just like I thought it would. At least my Bulldogs won! Yay.. GA Dawgs π.. ALL the messages and numbers were on the money .. along with Trump Rally and other events that took place.
- Dish dispute with Disney.. hahah.. but they took all our channels away for sports etc.. GGRRRR.
- Stoopid and the Internet are forever y'all.. jus Sayin' ...
- Scoobtober is finally here. Yes...
- The last few days a bust and so very sick.. not sure how much longer I can do this and or time I have, but it needs to hurry the hell up and get here .. like yesterday. I AM DONE
- I have a birthday again.. { 3 times }.... and 3 times it fell on Sunday /Monday.. loaded with stuff.. we shall see what this last one brings my way. hopefully freedom and peace finally.
- When he's gone days and comes in late one night after his fishing Tourney and adventure with his buds.. and he not only states how much he missed his dog and bed.. but rubs it in my face. WOW.. really? Glad to see I am still not even on his list.. screw being the bottom of the list.. I AM NON-EXISTANT. Yay.. me.
- The situation is getting bleaker with myself and loved ones.. he is in great denial and she just still doesn't get it and ignores anything and everything.. so denial too !!! The frustration is about to make the AO just explode. He is blind, foolish, and weak !!! He is forever a fucking sheep I think... Fuck ! the others well... it is all getting worse the closer to event time.
- THEY WILL SOON ALL SEE !!!
- No, I am NOT crazy.
- Trump is still your President ... God is forever King..
- WWG1WGA.. that last A stands for ALL and it means ALL ... not just ones that are convenient for us!
- Today has sucked so far. and it is not even lunch yet. I will just stay outta the way , cuz all shit gets thrown at me and this way.. that can NOT happen today. I need a break.. plz give me a break today father...
- Breakfast blend has me moving along in the motions.. but no one is in y'all. The rest of the day.. I am not looking forward to at all.
- PRAY FOR ME. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU.. hehehehehhe π This week to come will certainly be one .. we all will need well wishes and support . Now, get up off your ass and go do something worthy ~
- XoXo